I started this blog in March of 2007. I had others before that and created still more since (I have talked before about how I have this compulsion to grab blog real estate on a whim), but this is the one I’ve stuck with. I’ve been blogging for seven years, almost every day. I’ve never really concerned myself with being brilliant or witty (because I think that’s a quick route to CrazyTown). I blog for myself, because I feel compelled to say something to The Void.
In the last six months, I’ve had less to say. There are days that go by when I haven’t blogged–in some cases it’s because I get busy and I forget. Earlier this year, I put my food blog Pots and Plots on hiatus because I just couldn’t keep up. I intended to come back to it at some point, but I haven’t. It was something I could let go in a life full of busy busy things, very few of which I have the option to let go of.
I haven’t had less to say because I’m too busy but more because a lot of what I’ve had to say feels…uninteresting or, worse (to my mind) negative. I firmly believe that you get back more of what you put out into the world. Over the last few years, I’ve gotten increasingly sensitive to negativity. I avoid the news–most of it is bad and paints a picture of a world I don’t want to think about. I’d rather spend my time on Upworthy and at DailyGood, reminding myself of the fact that there IS good in the world. I don’t know that the world is going to hell in a handbasket now more than it ever was, but certainly the proliferation of social media means that we are bombarded more than ever before with images and thoughts and stories that show the absolute WORST of humanity–and that gives a very biased picture. Being around it makes me want to hold my index fingers in the sign of the cross to ward off evil. I can just feel it settling over me like a miasma of ICK. It gets my back up and makes me grumpy and I just hate it. So I’ve made a really concerted effort to cut down on the negativity in my life and to consciously choose to focus on the positive. It’s really done wonders for my personal level of zen.
So, since I haven’t had a whole lot of positive to talk about, and I don’t want to spread any personal negativity, I’ve been less talkative. I’m working on thinking of more ways to send positive vibes out into the world. I’ve had a great time putting together my Awesome Things posts. The direction of my writing has generally turned to one that’s considerably less dark and angsty than it used to be. The stuff I’m reading is a lot brighter and happier. So…that’s what I’m inclined to share.